You are my Fantasy





Dear Joe,

I've been an avid fan of yours way back in the Philippines. I even remember my brother recording all your episodes and It was from my brother na I first heard of you.

I have contemplated writing you but I never imagined I would come to a point that I would have the courage to share to your viewers my story. Call me Gerry. I'm 44 and currently residing here in the US. . It was difficult having 3 children but I was able to raise them with the help of my parents.

Joe, I fell in love with their father and I got pregnant when I was 21 .

Hindi nagtagal yung marriage namin dahil babaero siya. He was also sexually abusive and for years I tried to give in to his every want thinking na if I do Baka tumigil na Siyang mambabae. But I was wrong. I have finally given up on my hopes . Isang bahagi Joe ng buhay ko na Puno ng sakit at pagsisisi.

My second relationship I guess was. A rebound relationship. I met Don from work back sa Pilipinas and I thought that entertaining him would help me to completely get over my failed marriage.

I don’t know why I got myself into this Joe. May Asawa na rin si Don at just like me , tatlo ding anak. Sumunod siya sa akin dito sa states and doon ko na feel na talagang seryoso siya sa akin. He eventually ended his relationship with his wife and nagsasama na kami for 13 years. Ours was not a smooth relationship but I can feel na mahal na mahal niya ako.and I have always felt secure kasi na alam kong ako lang ang bababe sa buhay niya

Joe, maybe I still felt incomplete kaya I got myself into another relationship habang kami pa ni Don. I met Jason three years ago sa high school reunion namin. He’s every woman’s fantasy , he’s very good looking and very popular sa school namin. We started out as friends but I knew that my feelings would grow deeper dahil this is the first time na na feel ko kung pano ligawan. I felt like parang dalaga na naman ako. You see Joe, I never experienced maligawan dahil strict ang parents ko. Nabuntis ako kaagad after three months nung father ng mga anak ko and with don naman, since its a rebound relationship, hindi naman talaga niya ako niligawan.

Joe , 3 years na kami ni Jason ngayon pero kinikilig pa rin ako sa kanya na parang teenager. I can’t explain it . Jason has his ways of making me feel like I am the most beautiful woman in the world. I know it’s unfair pero kahit kasama ko si Don, it is still Jason , I’m thinking about.

You see Joe, bumalik si Jason s a pilipinas dahil he’s having problems with his girl. Meron din Siyang sang anak from his previous marriage.

Call me stupid or crazy or selfish Joe, Iniwan ko si Don because I felt that this was better for both of us. I didn’t care even he had to give up his family for me basta ang alam ko ang gusto ko ngayon ay si Jason at masaya ako sa kanya.

Joe , hindi nagtagal at kinabahan na naman aso. I had this same feeling when I found out na nangagaliwa yung ex husband ko. Jason lives in colorado while I am here in las vegas. meron na akong intuition na he was doing something behind my back.

One time I saw a reflection sa eyeglasses niya while chatting with him na may tini text siya sa isang niyang phone habang nasa lap niya. I called his attention pero Sabi niya sinuganling daw ako

And this is not the only time that I caught him cheating. Every time I call his attention Joe, sinisigawan niya ko at minumura pa, the worst curses a woman can hear.

There was even one time he said hindi na nya ako mahal. At hinihintay na lang nya na may makilala ako. The worse was he said suportahan mo na lang ako financily ayaw ko na sau. Bayaran mo ako sa lahat ng sinira mo sa buhay ko. Pumasok ka na lang sa mental at wala na Kong pakialam są buhay mo

Joe, alam ko magagalit ka but I would do anything just for him to take me back.

I even thought of ending it all. Iniisip ko napaka malas ko sa mga relasyon ko. Gusto ko bumalik kay Don pro d ko kayang mawala si Jason.I love jason but I know deep in my core that he does not love me he only needs me because i am supporting him financially.

I still want to believe that he loves me. na May anger issue lang siya Joe.

Does he really Love me Joe?

Is it time to move on?

Minsan nahihiya na ako magdasal kay Lord kasi tuwing binibigyan niya ako ng chance, I fail him. Pray for me Joe madalas I ask God to just take me to end my misery

Joe. Meron pa ba akong dapat gawin para mag stay siya? Pagod na pagod na akong umiyak.

Sincerely yours,

Gerry


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